Everyone needs someone to talk to once in a while. Or something. Anyways, just straight up text posts so LOL don't be following me bye.
Wallowing in self-pity because I’m going to be missing glee tonight AGAIN. ajkskkdkakakakkskdkskalla
I’ve been keeping this to myself for such a long time now, but I feel like I finally need to try to express myself using words.
I feel like no one genuinely likes me. I feel like a prop that my friends use to look busy when their real friends are not available. I always feel like a second choice. I don’t think that anyone has ever thought of me as their best friend. I feel like an object. I feel like i’m that friend that everyone secretly hates and talks about behind my back. I feel worthless.
And most of all, I feel used. But I’m too scared to say anything because I already know what will happen. I’ll get mad and leave them, but they won’t give a fuck because I am a nobody. And then I’d just be alone. But this time it’d be both physically and mentally.
So is it better to have “friends” that don’t appreciate you, or to be alone? Because I don’t know and I’m constantly getting my feelings hurt and crushed and stomped on and burned. And I can’t really take much of this anymore. I just can’t. It hurts me too much to feel like a nothing. I’m tired of pretending like it doesn’t bother me, because it does, and it always has. I’m just really tired of these feelings.
